I decided to document our pregnancy as a way to get all my feelings and emotions out and to later look and remember this beautiful time in our lives. I hope you enjoy if you decide to follow along on this life changing journey.
Staring at the word pregnant on the pregnancy stick was one of the best feelings I felt. So many emotions and thoughts ran through my head.
Is this seriously saying I'm pregnant?? Like me? It actually says the word pregnant? There isn't a not in front of the word pregnant? I can't believe it actually says I'm pregnant!
I ran outside of the room to Anthony and just cried. He put his head down, "another negative?" and I looked him in the eyes with tears filling in mine. All I could do was shake my head and hand him the test and saw the same relief and disbelief I had. We went out and bought more tests that night and with three saying clearly that we were pregnant, I called my doctor the next morning to make an appointment with her to further confirm the pregnancy.
At this point, I debated on telling anyone until after the first trimester due to fear of the test being wrong or a miscarriage. We have wanted a child for so long that my fear poured in on top of this excitement that at any moment, there is a chance of miscarriage especially so early on. In the end we decided to share the news with our family and close friends to have a support system no matter the outcome.
The Monday following I went through the routine check up with my doctor and she confirmed indeed I was pregnant and referred me to an OB doctor. The excitement rose just as much as the fear. I also realized at this point that I had such an amazing support system from my husband alone who constantly reassured and comforted me every time my fears came.
I am truly blessed to have him as my partner in this life and can't wait to experience parenthood with him.